If you've been here before you know the tone That I took four years ago when I began posting poems It's a tone and topic I'd thought I'd finally grown past I am dishearted and disappointed when I once again ask:
Why am I alive? I see no purpose, no joy, no fun in life. What am I doing here? Why didn't I end it long before this year?
I am tired. I am impossibly tired and I will be tired impossibly longer I am done. I want it to end. I am ready to end. I have grown no stronger. I am still as weak as the child with a knife and far too much strife to stay I am little more than I was, with the addition of love that wears on me every day.
Why am I alive? I am no longer despondent when I ponder this. Why do I exist? I can't be bothered to breathe with this emptiness.
This will be my last poem for some time, I can't bear to read through my own thoughts. This will be my existence for more time, I can't make happiness from what is not. Thank you for reading and commenting and being the sweet people of a poetry site. I will be here, in a day or a year, to regale you with more of my thoughts of life.