Drown myself in the river of time Bloated in my mind. Sorrow, Regret. Plucked out by the roots Embedded so deeply Supposedly free. How to heal over? Find compassion for my seventeen year old self Forgive? Forget? Move forward with her cells still circulating inside of me. Proven scientifically. Ugliness wells up inside Self disgust too gross to hide Manifest on the outside Mark my face- Red and raw Heavily sedated Medicated. Artificially dilated