I know...
it must be a good morning
in your part of
the world

here...
here in my
little space on earth
I'm not too sure...
anymore


after...
all this time
in my mind you're
still mine

even if...
you're really not
you'll always hold apart
of my heart

I
wonder...
would it surprise you that
I often have spur-of-the-moments
when I want to talk to you

sometimes... with urgency

probably not

because
it's how we used to be before
I lost that luxury

its
killing me
to know she's taken
over all liberties that came
with being your
lady

silly me...
trying
to orchestrate
a reality where you never existed

actually...
believed I'd live pain free
but...

your
special ring tone
was my wakeup call that had
me singing the blues
on how I lost you

and...

after
all the verses
were sung I wished to God
they'd reverse to when our hearts knew
we were in love

impossible I know...

so...

here...
here I sit
surrounded by all these
memories of us indulging in
each other's time
and mind
and
how...
I
failed
to take one of
many opportunities to say,
'I Love You'

perhaps...
you would've
inhaled the words and
felt what I was feeling souldeep
for you.

instead...
I'm living in
the company of
misery
as
we watch
you in love with her
while she happily lives a life
meant for me

I
guess
truly loving you
means wanting your happiness
even if...

its
not
with
me​



©cj