i want someone to read my dirtiest thoughts and not be scared or pity me i want empathy while i spit blood and *** and sweat and pull at ingrown hairs; while i tell you i’m not sure why i’m alive while i tell you i’m not sure anyone loves me while i tell you i’ve had dreams about you exploding, your insides spread across the living room walls in some kind of strange irony, i want you to be as sad as I am but lovely enough to pull us both out i want to be saved little by little person by person word by word secret by secret until i know longer feel like you would run if i told you i wanted you to run, or if i wanted you to stay; until i no longer have anything horrible enough to scare you away.