What is there to do?
it's so hard to be a passenger
watching us fade away
you're slipping through my fingers
lost to the tenements of duty and time
the choice is made
constant echos catch me off guard
I swear I hear you calling
but when I come
you're  not there
you send your ghost to taunt me
remnants of glistening hopes
swallowed by their smiles
They win again
They always have
I thought I had that one part of you
that tiny piece they never could
but it seems it's halved and quatered
there's not much left
if any at all
you've replaced us, me
and our impossible reality
with some other imposter
the lies you told were so real
I hold imaginary notes in my hand
and cast them to the wind
endless notes
I try to purge you
Every thought an easy betrayal
was it really ever for forever?
in the next life we said
that's too far away
so I write
endless notes
trying to forget you
endless possible futures
Torn away
carved out the deep ones with lies
how do you do it?
Look through me as if I wasn't there?
you'll be back
another note offered to the wind
Ive begun tearing out hopes
to get to the place before I met you,

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