Dreaming of you keeps me awake. And I find myself here in the same place everyday, trying to write out the way my heart skips a beat every time you even look at me but I know it's never gonna be anything other than what it is right now, me drinking ***** until I can't see your face burned into the back of my eyelids and pass out every other weekend. And maybe I'm fine with it. Maybe the way your smile makes me forget everything I've ever known about myself, and love, and breathing is enough. But it's in the way my hands shake when I even think of you looking at someone else the way I do you that I know I can't do this forever. And maybe I'll drink that away too.