I don't understand why I feel so dead inside Why would I set the key aside
If I hadn't lost that key You wouldn't be in my head right now I just want to be set free
My body is starting to break down My mind is going in circles being chased around
My head is stirring up dark deep thoughts How can I make it stop I'm so out of sorts
Why did I let you beat me and choke me You wouldn't stop until my body went limp I didn't know at the time I was just a trainee
All the while I thought you loved me All I wanted was to make a family tree
You loved being in power and in control I lost everything my body,heart, and soul
You was a con straight out of the hood I was a fish straight out of school
I wasn't living no more just going through the motion day by day Waiting mostly for the hits that you gave me when I disobeyed
Being careful of where I was hit So no one could tell I was being extinguished
you didn't want bruised merchandise You preyed on my mind as I declined
Following every rule you made Taking every punishment you served
Was I gonna be sold to traffickers Or was you afraid to let your money maker go to the panthers
Was this the bigger picture all along You stole my key and sold it to the devil is that why my head was always bashed against the wall
I was under your spell Only way out was through hell
People see you hitting and beating me But they just walk around or keep going never saying word to help me get my master key
Why did you not stop and help me Maybe I would've went back but what if you was the one who set me free
My life was in danger I was told my family was too which was a game changer
I did as told and when I was told and what I was told Somewhere in your f--ked up mind you thought I wasn't obeying you was always in control
That's when you used whatever weapon You had in tow to beat me into submission I reckon
You thought you was a player You was my soul taker
Written by: Denise Huddleston true story except for the key So if anyone ever sees someone man or woman getting their *** beat if you don't want to approach at least call 911