it's back
the urge to cry
gone only for
three short days

the lump
in my throat
my family thinks
i've got a cold
my coworkers think
it's allergies

but i'm lying just
trying not to cry

because crying makes
me feel weak and if
there's anything i can't
stand it's feeling powerless

i'm trying not to let
myself have emotions
trying to stay strong
trying not to scratch
at the wounds and
trying not to cry

but there aren't
many pills left
in the bottom of
the bottle and i
don't have refills
so i don't know
what i'll do
when i run out

trying
failing.