It feels like a calm before the storm. Avoiding the red flag triggers Like trap doors leading to the underworld Or a rabbit hole that only leads to Me in the fetal position Begging the universe to bring you back. Instead of wandering this *****-trapped wasteland, Searching for the road out, I'm clinging to the dirt, Refusing to get up. It is quiet like this, Nothing scary to stumble on, And no gaping holes to tumble down, Just me, and the dirt Solid, grounding, still.
I can breathe here, But I know I cannot stay Staying means starving Staying means giving up a future Staying means stagnance. I cannot stay.
So it really is the calm before the storm Because I feel fine now, In the quiet aftermath, But soon I'll have to get up Navigate this minefield of memories, Sadness, longing, and grief If I want to see the sun rise. And I will.
I once said it about you, Now I say it for me Here comes the sun.