I'm feeling depressed... My room smells like cigarettes... I smell like cigarettes... How did I get here? I swore never to do this... Guess I should never make promises... I apologize to the future me who's going to feel the consequences of this smoke... I didn't know what to do... This smoke is the only thing that seems to understand my preoccupations and insecurities... The only problem is that it is killing me...