Dec 2016
I’m disappointed, it’s true,
In myself for believing
That I could be anything
But disappointed in you
It used to be my priority
To learn to see with clarity
I should have learned long ago
How dangerous it is to hope
And time again you prove me right
And every day I have to fight
Much harder than before
And every night I go to bed
And think about the day ahead
And wonder how much more?
Sometimes I wish I didn’t see with such precision
That I had everybody else’s blurry vision
And could see the world in the same light
‘Cos I don’t like what I see when I open my eyes
The grin behind the smiles and the truth behind the lies
But I can’t keep them closed all the time
I constantly blame myself
Doubt and question every time
I let it enter my mind
That I could trust someone else
I now see the severity
Of seeing with such clarity
I should have learned long ago
How dangerous it is to hope
And time again you prove me right
And every day I have to fight
Much harder than before
And every night I go to bed
And think about the day ahead
And wonder how much more?
Sometimes I wish I didn’t see with such precision
That I had everybody else’s blurry vision
And could see the world in the same light
‘Cos I don’t like what I see when I open my eyes
The grin behind the smiles and the truth behind the lies
But I can’t keep them closed all the time
Now I know the price of clarity
Is to sacrifice normality
I should have learned long ago
How dangerous it is to hope
Copyright ©2016-2017 KF
In myself for believing
That I could be anything
But disappointed in you
It used to be my priority
To learn to see with clarity
I should have learned long ago
How dangerous it is to hope
And time again you prove me right
And every day I have to fight
Much harder than before
And every night I go to bed
And think about the day ahead
And wonder how much more?
Sometimes I wish I didn’t see with such precision
That I had everybody else’s blurry vision
And could see the world in the same light
‘Cos I don’t like what I see when I open my eyes
The grin behind the smiles and the truth behind the lies
But I can’t keep them closed all the time
I constantly blame myself
Doubt and question every time
I let it enter my mind
That I could trust someone else
I now see the severity
Of seeing with such clarity
I should have learned long ago
How dangerous it is to hope
And time again you prove me right
And every day I have to fight
Much harder than before
And every night I go to bed
And think about the day ahead
And wonder how much more?
Sometimes I wish I didn’t see with such precision
That I had everybody else’s blurry vision
And could see the world in the same light
‘Cos I don’t like what I see when I open my eyes
The grin behind the smiles and the truth behind the lies
But I can’t keep them closed all the time
Now I know the price of clarity
Is to sacrifice normality
I should have learned long ago
How dangerous it is to hope
Copyright ©2016-2017 KF
This was written when I finally lost faith in someone who had treated me very badly for such a long time, when I had done nothing wrong. I chose to let them live their life on their own and no longer be a part of it, even though it was very difficult for me.
