Nov 2016
When I wanted to die yesterday I thought long and hard about what it was I really wanted
I used to want the pain. The blood. To watch death happen.
Then I realized I don't want the death I want what seems like peace after death.
But would that even exist for me?
I used to want the pain. The blood. To watch death happen.
Then I realized I don't want the death I want what seems like peace after death.
But would that even exist for me?
I'm not going to **** myself it's just a reflection. I believe in a heaven and a hell. Would I be going to hell for just wanting peace of mind? I mean isn't the whole "peaceful" thing after death a myth anyways. It's just two places, one IS peace and one is the opposite. Would I be sent to the opposite in my disillusioned effort to gain peace?
