When you're at that moment
you don't think about anyone else
You don't think about your friends or your mom
or your teammates or your sister
All you think about is a number
a cold, empty number
How long would it take?

It's just you in that moment
all you, at your most real, most powerful, most broken
Where the only one who can make you turn away is you

They say that power casts a spell over people
all I can hope is that, for this moment, it's not true
Because if you dip your toes in the ocean too many times
one day, you're bound to fall in

*I don't want to fall, do I?