there it is in my hindsight post now brain
all the things that haunt me like  
they are hidden but aren't
times and incidences
that I might have been
out of touch with reality
and
I had thought I had
tucked them all away neatly to
forever go unknown
to be just times that don't
have anything to do with theme that is now
and
I found I can tuck and fold and hide things
from myself for a minute
quite well
but in the end it all comes forward
to the forefront
eventually
and that is where I am
right between facing and
running again