I need to be treated gently,
for I am somewhat fragile.

I need to be given attention,
and treated as more than a doormat.

I need to be made comfortable enough to speak,
so I know that having opinions is safe,
because it isn't always, I would know.

I need to be shown affection,
otherwise I get ornery.

but i realize that it's pointless.
I am a blur,
both here and not here.
you are the best parts of me
and more
and therefore
forever out of reach
because you hold so much back from me,
all the bad,
but most of the good too.