I told you before, I will not leave

I'm telling you now, I still wont leave

Whether leaves stay brown or  green

Or monsoon rains remain pristine

Keen is my eye to see

That you would leave me

And though that's already come

I still taste you in my rhum

The clean crisp taste

Hardly loved in haste

Like a shot, but far from reckless

Hardest part of loving the one who left is

-

All the love you ever kept

In the spaces between her fingers

All the love you gave to her

Well i guess it didnt linger

I payed the price for commitment

Resistant to change, but why

Why leave these legs behind

When they're all I've ever stood on

Why leave these hands

That moved my pen miles

Why leave this pen

That left books bruised with black on white

Why leave the heart that ran

Blood through corridors under skin

Like highschool hallways

Filled with doubt and confusion

Constant illusion of purpose

A surplus of pain gained surface

But you... were recess

Dismissal. Near enough to hold me hoping

But great enough to take me far

Showed me distance and time

You gave me all my reason

And filled me with all my rhyme

And I'm still holding in hoping

And somehow I'm coping

And grasping to the air

Where the hand I held stayed

Options weighed and decided

Hearts sparked and flame

Never subsided, delighted

To stand here staying

Hold here waiting

For the day waves of people clear

The crowded room of your world

With lines of sight unhindered

By million kindled spirits

Looking for the same thing, love

Hoping for the same thing, love

So I will love

You

Will hear me sigh

But never see me cry blood on paper pavement

You will think me gone

But I told you before

I will not leave

And have not left, I never will

Go out and live and have your fill

But for now I'll have to be okay

That you decided not to stay