What a task it must be to hold a candle to me, a stationary puddle of wax colored grey and crimson by twelve seasons we've shared juxtaposed or apart. I've found your hues on the faces of others often impervious to my flames, hardened with my tears. And our marriage demands that I believe we will melt together or fall into the cracks of another holder.
It's the hardest thing to move on with someone who betrayed you. Everyone advises you against it. It's so difficult when you genuinely believe they are right- but you're so broken you don't know how to leave.