I thought,
I speak,
I shut down.

I wait,
I hope,
I shut down.

I feel,
I breathe,
I shut down.

Unstable am I,
Traveling these shallow halls.
I fall upon the shadows, creeping down beside.

Shadows have always been my peace,
my prosperity.
A place I could call happy and home.

How can one cast a shadow of the broken?
Is there a crack in the shadow?
If so, Mine is split in half.

Emotions and me, they don't mix.
The serpent is right, I tempt myself.
As worrysome as it is, It is out of my control

Anger is something I never struggled with,
until now.
Concentration breaks with fury and rage.

I thought something had changed,
Like the last times before.
But my mind stays put, and the shadows remain.

How? How is it that easy?
I honestly can't say.
It has always been hard for me,
It's always been that way.

Tell me dear, how I can be fixed.
Mended from the past, present and future.
Otherwise, I'm not sure there will be the third.

Why am I like this?
Where did this come from?
Who have I become?

I said before, and I say it again.
I've lost myself.


*please help me find my way back.