it's so hard to write a poem
about my feelings
because to be honest with you
i don't understand them

but I want so badly to write
about the thoughts inside
because to be honest with you
it hurts to keep them in

i'm sorry that my words
dont make sense
that my thoughts aren't
coherent
i apologize
for every scribble of a note
that I work to complete
that comes out
like a toddlers drawing
hung up on a fridge
with a faulty magnet
soon fallen to the floor/
tears of a child
projected onto construction paper
but no one
looks for pain
written with a crayon