I heard you been looking
Trying to find me
I haven't been hiding
For the last few years now...
... been here all the time

You said you think it's funny
How we just kept missing out in running into each other  
I can't see it with any kind of humor
I feel like it's been tragic - like black magic
Had to have a hand in this

I was at your sister's wedding
But they said that you were delayed in Denver
I left soon after they cut the cake and had the first dance
And then found out you caught the next flight
Getting there just 5 minutes after I left

I'm not sure if I remember
Where and when I came back from the ******
I know it was at least a week later

Then somebody told me you asked for my address
But because you had less than a 48-hour window
You had to get back to Tokyo.. you had to go
I guess you are just way too busy
Making your business grow...
always on the go

I finally - more than a year later
Got the courage to ask your sister ...
... If I can get your number
She gave me much more than just what I asked for
I caught the way that her eye suddenly pulsated
She told me that you were engaged to get married
Set for somewhere in early May
I thought about calling to give you my blessing
I just couldn't get myself to do it
I know I blew it...
... But I' kind of knew it  
For a long long time

Less than a month later
I quit my job
Sold my house and moved away
To start all over- I had become such a hater
All of my friends - were sort of glad to see me go

It didn't take long though - to know
That where I had landed
Was a place I didn't really belong
What I had tried so hard...
... To leave behind
Wasn't the people or the places
It was the pictures that I still had in my mind
That was something I figured out
Although it took a really long time and it took a heavy toll on me

I lost all Direction
Went out looking for just the basics
Cohabitation without affection
I'd make it clear - of my intentions
But people seem to just hear what they want
Each of them...
.... eventually tried to get closer
Then I'd have to try some kind of stunt
That would get them packing
It got so easy  I should just write a book

After awhile I forgot how to smile
Then it seems like I traded that for the ability to cook

Then for so long - I see now.. I was so wrong
And like you told me just a few minutes ago
That you' never got married
And that you even came looking
But everybody told you that I seem to have just disappeared

No I don't think it's very funny
But I'll be sure to always be around now
I'll be by to see you whenever I can
I have to go now- I'll see you tomorrow
And we can catch up on all the things that we missed

I didn't tell her that I was dying
Because of what the doctor - behind her shoulder just told me with his eyes
I really had nowhere to be -nowhere to go
I ended up in a bar having a drink and a good cry
That look from your doctor and the subsequent knowledge
Said that she has probably 2 weeks at the most
And she most likely will never ever leave the hospital

Now we **** sure ain't funny
And I was right when I said that its tragic
Now that we finally found each other
And see  clearly how much time together we lost
I may spend another 40 years after you're gone
Being alone and I do mean alone...
... That's the price I'm willing  to pay
Because I already know just how much
Being without you... Can cost