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Oct 2016
Heartache, misery & despair is all I know. I drown in their dark waters, can never stay afloat.

  Happiness has always been a fleeting feeling for me. Never able to last long enough for me to bask in its beauty.

  My life is like a somber southern hymn that slaves on plantations would sing long ago.

  Mother abandoned me when I was just a few weeks old. Father constantly beat me in a drunken rage till my limbs were sore and inflamed.

  At 16 I got ***** by a boy that I would see in my neighborhood but never knew his name.

  I ran away soon after figuring I could do better on my own.

  The world couldn't hold a worse hell for me than the one I had already known.

  Lost and confused. Scared and alone. These were the only friends I had.

  They're still present in my life today. Daily preying on my flesh till my insides rot away.    

  I don't know what it's like to be free and let go of the past.

  The memories torture me and the nightmares keep me in cold sweats.

  I'm suffocating with my own hand around my neck.

  I pray to God but I don't think he hears me cause my spirit is still in ******* in purgatory.

  But for some reason I keep going no matter how many times I've contemplated taking my own life.

  Something inside me just won't let me quit. So I guess I'll continue to fight till I find serenity from my plights.

  Dying to the darkness to live in the light.
Kennisha L Crawford
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Kennisha L Crawford  30/F
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