I look at the bodies of my beloved and my son and wish that wasn't me. I look at the ****** knife in my hand and horrible wounds on their bodies and wish that wasn't me.
I remember coming home drunk. I remember her being angry at me. I remember my head aching. I remember her yelling at me. I remember shouting at her to shut up.
I understand making a mistake of taking the knife and screaming at her. I understand making a mistake of stabbing her again and again, crying at her to be silent.
I regret looking up and noticing my son weeping at the door. I regret screaming at him to be silent as well.
I stare at my hands and the ****** knife. I stare at the corpses of my dearest queen and my heir.