I been feeling the weakness, I bury it deep inside. But when I find myself all alone it says "I WILL NO LONGER HIDE". Maybe I should say a prayer for myself, not for me now but my near future in life, but then again I can think some more and know that there will be the usual price. First I lay down my pride and know this needs to come to end, then I think back to all that I've done today and quit playing pretend. I probably got my whole life ahead of me, but first I just leave my shame and trust it all will be something different and never back to the same. But **** that now cause I'm paralyzed. Don't want to live but I'm scared to die. At least without proper closure, and perhaps to find a special one and get the special chances to hold her. But I have no room in my heart for love letters, and if she's out there then I'm just a second guesser. And in my mind I'm all alone anyway. Perhaps it's that if when someone's entered in I end up again somehow a castaway. But here I am with the stress, along with the pressure, and all the pain And why my life puts all this on me I don't know forget just what it hopes to gain.