My mind
Disassociated from the rest of me,
thinking things my mouth wouldn´t dare speak
Loving things I shouldn´t dare love.
I wish i could decipher it all

My body,
totally different from what I´d like,
arms covered with reminders of the past,
thighs, ankles, stomach
Little lines, some criscrossed
a shade darker than my ivory skin

My soul
broken, yet too strong
confused, yet too smart
young, yet elderly age

it seems to me as though im a contradiction
scared, yet fearless
I just wish i knew
how to clear the blurriness from my eyes