He did not want it. So he tells me. He simply did what he could A simple gift by Lady Fate So he says, sheepishly. He shrugs in nonchalance Graceless in his apathy Yet he is given the reward. Why is that so, Destiny? Why do you keep me searching for you? Why do you smirk As I am blinded and deafened in my pursuit for the light Some clarity, an opportunity? And you throw it in my face? I could so easily be mad at you I could so easily wail in agony I could so easily grit my teeth and curse your existence I could so easily abandon any pretence of control Yet I do not. I dare not vocalise these petty thoughts I dare not challenge you, for I am at your every whim But you cannot stop me from asking You cannot prevent me from questioning Why him, why not me? What did he do so much better than I? As he fakes illness and emotion As he swaggers around in brilliant obnoxiousness What is that one talent that I am without? Must I lay my hands at your feet? Must I praise your questionable presence? Must I abuse and disregard you for some show of mercy? They say one must wait They say ‘Be patient, every dog has its day’ Then what am I? A miserable dead unworthy hybrid A perverse creation that ought not to exist That it is not given a part in even one proverb in innumerable? You desire that I let it get to me You desire that I grow more impatient than usual You ****** things away from reach so I sigh in resignation, as you laugh Cruelly, in mockery of my fumbling limbs. But I smile I keep the thoughts in a little box sealed away I gather every ounce of sincerity and joy I collect my courage, I move my muscles Enough to speak, to type, to send, to wish To the blessed child of good fortune ‘Congratulations’.
Otherwise known as 'Karma, thou art a heartless *****.'