8 days, 8 days I was living, breathing and sleeping. 8 days. Ocho- meaning 8 in Spanish. Acht- meaning 8 in German. 8 days since the last time I self-harmed. 8 days, isn’t that great? I have had a few breakdowns and I have cried a lot in these 8 days. I feel the urge to cut. Feelings are overwhelming me. I’m sad and happy, delusional and anxious. I get nervous over the simplest things. I can’t live. Cutting, cutting was the way I dealt with things. It was my habit, everyone has one.