As if I cared...
I mean I might ... but
I'm past that point
Where I would ever let her know... again
The things I shared
No dark truth spared

During that insignificant blip
If even that
Along the evolving corridors of time
Was... As I repeatedly said
Impossible to quantify
Without the metronomic
Mechanization of the machinery
To create periodic downloads

  That that first 20 days
Had not actually been the six months
That I would have sworn it to be

I was paralyzed ,hypnotized, afflicted addicted, predilected

But there wasn't one fiber of my being
Physical, emotional or spiritual
That held back. ,ever hit pause
Or ever even gave me cause
To doubt.....
I was lost and didn't Fn care

I was all in...  .within.....
Those first three hours
AND  THAT AIN'T ME!!
Well.... Then again....
I guess it must be

So I heard myself say - and I knew
Absolutely new- as I heard the echo of my words come bounding back
That it was true...... absolutely true
And in many ,many ways

I said to myself
As I absorb those words
With an Invincible Pride
That I had never known before

" I WOULD DIE FOR YOU!"

As the next three weeks passed
Perfection was becoming a word that was a pale ,poor and inferior. relative
After the breathtaking Heights .....
......of my reality

Then as I was still doing trampoline tricks among the clouds

She said. " I'm not ready... I'm confused
I'm still broken but you are perfect you're what every woman would ever want or ever need.
You make me laugh ,you care for me more than any man has ever cared about me, and show it like no other ever has...."

I'm sure there was more
That's all I heard as I took the misstep and fell from the clouds
To hit the ground
Dazed and Confused

But I tried to gather myself

To muster together my Bliss.....this ...is..
Not really that bad
Not the end of the world by any means
The whole thing was just too heady
too quick  and I could really see that so....

Relax and let time do its thing
Which I did
Until it turned out that someone else
Had intervened became involved
I just never ever expected something like that to occur......but it did
And at that moment I kept my promise

I DIED  FOR HER.....IN EVERY WAY BUT ....."