I remember when there was a time My camera got overheated (Those boys didn't know what they were doing, it's true) I drank whiskey neat Texted you but turned my phone off I felt content and glad I gave a nurturing love This was before you returned And we like strangers In a new town Held hands and know not within Or without.
I drink coffee I bought some water It's beautiful and strange to see my new boyfriends name at the top of the call sheet And with the tips of my fiery fingers Cannot help but challenge In the wake of our sleep But I do, I love you so much. I know we both want it to happen for me.
I'm tired as **** A song ironically played in the car With the boy that drove us here That once was your anthem For how you left me But it was you filled with regret And I don't think or sing hymns of you anymore One of my ladies, she couldn't help but speak trifling tales of lingering interaction of her past I encouraged her to lead with love and grounding Because I know her head is in the clouds Or down behind bushes I quietly push back the branches of her ego and think That doesn't sound so cool, to me But she voiced her lack of grounding And I thought good good Here's some of the love and validation you so seek Now go.
And much with me Though I stand firm A gushing sound of my goodness What you have done, what I have done And lately I think Wow. I really can do ******* anything And it made all that fear All that chaos The months of my heart being vomited onto the table And never once stopping to say I'm sorry can I make you more comfortable Or I'm sorry I should be smaller None of it at all.
My mind is dark and deep I imagine violence in mundane circumstances Like I would blood in the snow As we would wander through south Philadelphia with our cameras and our passion
That girl that loves to ask for no permission Now She's what I would call Cool.