I should be sipping coffee And hitting the pavement For the next moment But I'm so burnt out and tired My bed looks more longing.
And I don't mean to be ill tempered But I have tucked my tail beneath my legs And in the moments where I can see the busy bee nest of both of our Existences and worry and wonder Can I?
I've never been such a we And I'm really ******* trying I got so good at taking care of me And in the inside of my mind I'll pick apart the tiniest things And see you in those moments In a hazy version in my mind Not as a force that holds me back Like the inexplicable amount before But worry and wonder Can I be responsible for your Worries, your fears, your concerns too.
Maybe I'm just extremely selfish I'll think Or surrounded by ******* But I know me and I know the caverns I disappear into at the height of newness Opportunity And I worry and wonder Not a matter of whether or not you have your own cavern But can we share our caves Without staining the walls With our blood To paint out the pictures of what we have And what we want.
I think the answer is yes I want it to be so And then a flurry of skeptical remarks will nag and whimper Inside my complicated head And it hurt me last night That I'm actively trying to be better But you couldn't really listen and respond To what my teacher said after my work was shown.
I don't know. I havent said that in a minute But I do feel like everyone is up their own *** And I get it I do Myself included But I'm here I've got cabin fever but don't want to leave I should pack But I've swallowed myself In place.