I don't know why I've tried so very hard
To forget the way you smelled or talked.
To erase my mind of your idiosyncrasies
Was something I regret, but can't confront

Because I want to feel everything again
I want to experience the sting of losing you
I don't want to block the pain anymore
I want the memory to rain over me

And instead of fastening my umbrella
I want to be drenched in what we were
I want to be enveloped by the pain
Just to remember again how much you meant

If only I could bring myself to acknowledge
How damaged I am without you by my side
I was always cautious to build my life around you
Because I didn't want to be scarred

But I had just hoped that we would work
Instead of loving and then breaking off
We were two people going down different roads
With only time to kiss at an intersection