oh, gods
I just want
to feel something again.

this alway happens. I
"get better"
but it doesn't last, and
each time
it's shorter
and shorter
until it's just a week and a half.

no amount of meds, or
crystals, or
therapy, or
aroma therapy, or
meditation, or
anything
will help me feel better.

maybe it's time to quit
"getting better"
and accept my
sad
pointless
reality.