At this moment

The total lack of a fight
Left in my mind

The absence of anything to see
In my eyes

I have so many petty problems
To take up my time

I'm a stupid lonely
Melodramatic teenager

Just like every single
Other one

I have so much to live for
So many things

Until I die
And it's all gone

Did you know
I'm not afraid anymore

Of dying?
I'm not afraid anymore

Of crying
If I could only do it

If I let myself
I could say only you can save me

But I won't embarrass you
With that stupid *******

I don't believe that
You don't believe that

I don't want this anymore
I don't want to be on the floor anymore

I don't want this life
I just want to be nowhere at all

Here or at my house
Curled up in a ball

Or kicking the ******* wall
I need a way out of my head

But don't worry

I can still get out of bed
I can still get up and get dressed

I can still say hello
And good morning

Or shake your hand
If you want me to

All these trivial things
I can do

And who ******* cares
About the rest

About anything
Really
Not me

And not you