I know there's something wrong but I don't know what. I know I have to change but I don't know how. I know that I'd stop crying but I don't know when. I know some people hate me but I don't know why.
Nobody loves me, that's what I'm starting to feel. Nobody needs me, that's what they made me feel. I am but a burden and that's what I'm feeling. Torn between the thought of dying and trying.
I wish there is someone who'll listen to my rants. I wish there is someone who will understand cries. I wish there is someone who will tell me I am right. I wish that someone would tell me: everything will be alright.
I wish to cheer people, when they have to deal with life. I wish to be useful, to the ones who brought me here. I wish to be someone, who would listen silently. And not to be someone, who is selfish, nags and rude.
I wiped my tears, but they didn't stop falling. I faced the floor and they just kept pouring. I stopped hiding my tears, 'cause nobody noticed. I cried 'till tears ran out and blood started falling.
I don't want to live dying, but I don't want to die living, like a corpse in daylight, walking. Life is beautiful, life is cruel Life is a gift, with endless burden
I should've been selfless, and learned to appreciate. I should've understood them when I wished to be understood. I should've been more careful, with the things that I have said. I should've been a good kid, and listened to my parents.
If only I wasn't me, with a different family. If only I had something I could do so perfectly. If only my steps, had the right foot to start with. Would I still be sitting here, waiting for my death?