It's hard enough, watching you grow into a rose, when I am merely a dandelion. I feel like poison in your presence, in your golden apple of a life. Yes she was once your butterfly but I'll never be anything more than a ******* moth. I love you. I'm sorry. Don't leave me. I see you stop and stare as girls who remind you of her walk down the street. I watch your eyes glaze over in defeat, you've buried everything like a dead body in a meadow of regret with no time to mourn. I tell you I'm fine with razors against my lips and my fingers crossed behind my back. I am not fine. So on the days that I seal my own shell closed with cement. I want you to know, I'm thinking about her. The girl who was once your butterfly. When all I'll ever be, is a moth.