how loss is not affecting you like its a different
hat you place on your head every morning

I am shaking all over at this grief
tears just not stopping
nor will they until unmeasured
time passes

Love no longer exists from your spirit
vanished like a vapor of breath
heart of yours lost its place

stoniness is all that's left why??
emotions no longer lay inside your spirit
mine burst out bringing fresh grief
more struggling tears

I want to stay in check but I'm
not ready yet.
I am hurting and bleeding from
within my spirit
blood has exploded about ready
to come rushing out

you on the other hand say not a word
to me giving me a blank stare
with you wishing I would disappear
into thin air

a year has passed we are still here
in this empty house with silence drawn
one morning I get up to clear this mess
once and for all

You step into the kitchen with a hat
in your hand saying this silence between
us is just much

I  silently cried in the middle of the night
praying you would come to comfort me
but you never did try.

Now I understood why the silence
I walked towards him to give him my hand
we sat down and talked for hours making
our way back to the love we still had for each
other and our marriage.

We still have grief sometimes but its less
as we know our child is in heaven
and she was our best.