it's so difficult to live

when you've decided not to

and you're just hanging around

     -nervous-

but you've got dignity

even if you don't have enough pills

                      to end it quick

but you've got dignity

even if it can't pay the rent

                      or keep the power on



still waiting for the right time

       -the moment-

that will be your last

but you might as well read something

you might as well return a note

to someone who loves you

and doesn't ask you to pretend



even if the words are shaking



grasping



cold