Is it really possible for me, to be what they want to see? Though I've never done it before its there, the urge it sit still as stone until violently it screams, "just purge". The smell off food cooking is like poison yet i eat and eat and eat until all I've done for an hour and a half is eat. my skin quivers and crawls, no escape from these four walls. This house is like a prison cell, all you can hear is the ringing of a bell, though logically you no its silent, but silence is most definitely violent. And so the struggle begins again to avoid that horrid gain.