If I could go back and see my 16 year old self
What would I say?
I'd tell myself
When you see me about to run myself down
Get out of the way
Don't stand there pretending that it's all ok
Or that you can take the punishment Because you can't
SO....
Get out there and rant
Fight ...don't be complacent
Don't smile at it all
As if tomorrow
It will all be better

If I could go back and see my 16 year old self
What would I do?
I'd probably sit and watch myself for a while
To  see if what I remember
Is really what I view
I think I know what I was like
But then again... who am I to say?
 
So I would probably sit down
To write myself a letter
Filled  with what I saw
What I found out ....
..... then put it away
For a future time
Maybe like today
To be read
Seeing if I made any changes
Instead
Or continuing ...How it
More likely
Would go anyway

If I could go back and see my 16 year old self
What would I see?
I'd see  a kid with so much potential
Who tried so hard
To knock down the walls
Of certain types of reality
Before I got the scars I now wear

I would see me without the cynicism
I find now is wrapped around me
Like barbed wire grown into a tree
No way to take it out
Without
Damage
Without
Leaving a long deep ****
For all the world to see
So the barbed wire is...
...A much better picture
Of my reality

If  I could go back and see my 16 year old self
What would I want to do ?
I think I would want to take a picture
The two of us together
The yin and yang of
What it is... that is me

If I could REALLY go back
And see my 16 year old self ..I think I would pass
For it may be
That I would insert some kind of sadness
That I would carry on
All the way to now...
Somehow

  I wouldn't want that
Because ...all in all
As tough as it has been
I'm happy with who it is I am
And that is about all
I'd really want ....
...... To say
To my 16 year old self.