I took a breath but it didn't sink in
I'm pretty sure I'm alive
but sometimes it doesn't feel like it.
Cause I avoid interaction,
Social gatherings are like hell
going out with friends should be enjoyable but...
I would rather be alone.
and when I say alone its not most peoples alone
I don't want to be only only now or at that moment
I want to be alone forever.
And forever maybe a bit of an exoneration, maybe at one point i'll want human interaction,
But that seems like a slim chance right now.

I would actually rather have people not care cause I know its a lie when I say to myself they don't
It's easier to crt+alt delete your life, when you know people don't care.
Cause if I could do that I wouldn't hid behind this computer that lights up my room at night because I can't sleep,
and some days I go with out any sleep cause for some reason the dark fuels my mistakes.
And you probably haven't read to this part,
and if you have well then great no reward cause I have nothing else to give,
my body is worn and scared from giving my time already
if you want take my heart just make sure I'm not breathing before.
It won't be ******, just a helping hand.

so... I'll take a breath but it won't sink in
I'll force myself to do this thing called life but I won't actually live.
and I'd rather be alone for the rest of it,
so please if you could excuse yourself and don't leave a comment.