It was and is not easy for me I beg don’t make it harder
You will not understand and I can’t make you to feel how it feels when your body can’t hold your heart
How it feels when you know in your veins what you feel but barricade between your body and mind will not let you feel your feelings
How it feels when the world address you Dude and you afraid the girl you are trying hard to coffined in your heart will show up
I wish I could show you my pain filled abortive trials to push hard even the tiniest bulging meat on my body deep inside into my skeleton
I wish I could show you Pain of pretension
Pretension of walking straight Pretension of speaking loud Pretension of being brave at the time of drooping in fear that you will be identified and termed as a queer
I wish I could make you realize helplessness of being a public secret anguish of dying out of respect and living in agony because your body is not answerable to anatomy
When you all wanna prove your identity I am begging you please let mine go
because my identity can not be identified by the tiny part between my legs Please tell me how long I need to beg
to find the place where my body will not be dissected to discover my hearts gender
Please tell me how long......?
Is life is all about define our gender ? Is to so necessary to belong to a particular sexuality-either men or women. Why we can't think beyond this to give ourself and others, whom we define as transgenders a better life ? Before asking someone are u gay, a lesbian or a transgender just ask what a person want to do with his life or what just what he loves to eat ? which game he loves to play etc...etc.... Please realize sometimes our words, our expression affects others deeply. After all we all are part of the picture pale blue dot