I find myself breaking down again
time and time again I remember the flaws
the mistakes and the lies
I spiral and lie in denial
i'm on trial in my mind for the crimes i've committed
but no, wait, this isn't my doing
the demon inside of me trying to win,
its goal to vanquish and I wanna give in,
the only way to triumph,
the only way to get by,
is to begin to recognize when its me
and when it's my demons
they whisper and taunt
and tell me to die
sometimes it's hard
I don't know how to cope sometimes
I don't know how to trust
It takes all I have sometimes
Just to continue this ******* waste of a life