Ive been pondering too much lately on what it takes to live

For i've never been truly happy but I give all I can give

I'd rather sit here behind my screen and tell you it’s ok

While inside i'm crumbling and thinking that it's over or at least it will be soon

I insist upon hope for tomorrow, but I still cut my wrists

I’m a liar, a hypocritical fraud, but I hope you listen to my words and believe the part that’s true

Because death isn't the answer, at least, not for you

And while i'm struggling to find myself and trying to stay alive, the thing that gives me purpose is helping you decide

To see the hope and see the light and I watch your angel eyes

As you turn back to heaven while I stifle my desperate cries