Summer: He kissed me Flashes of my past favorite things charmed those blue eyes God I still remember everything about us Fresh fish on the grill The first time you held my hand We curled around each other's bodies like tentacles We wanted every inch Sweat Harmonium on inside humor You found me and I followed The ring bells Terms of endearment changed so drastically He held her so gently that I melted like butter Like what you would cook and we sweated until we kissed An entire day downstairs and an entire night upstairs No wonder I got so dizzy. Finding ourselves becoming one. Sharing clothes and teeth marks and hearts. We were happy. Once.
Fall: The leaves changed. So did we. I over stayed my welcome. Being swept out like the garbage below you. Swish. Swish. Swish. The inches between us in your bed Complete with "Nightmare Before Christmas" print Grew larger and larger The unfamiliar faces began becoming your new candy Apparently I wasn't dark, or sweet enough for anymore.
Winter: On my knees I never knew how terrible tears tasted Begging you please Slap Slap I fell down a flight of stairs You came with me, but only to use it for malice Why? How? I never should've cared. True love doesn't exist here. Only long walks through the jungle Giraffes walking around. Long limbs. Long eyelashes. Long tongues. That's the only freedom that exists.
Spring: Where did these feet come from? Suddenly I can walk by myself again. Shaky. My hands and back tremble from the weight of the world. Atlas has not helped. Surrounded by the ghosts of my past, and present.
Keep this for the motto girls: "No one can have me like I got me."