all night laying awake only knowing what life would be like to understand. my mind see;s lies but my heart doesn't know weather to cry or just run away so i won't have to face the people the next day. i lay next t my girlfriend. the road feels like the empty hollow feeling. no place to hear or want to speak. been clean  from self harming for 2 and a half months. every thing i wanted to say i rather just let my road pay out dissipating drooping off the face of the earth knowing ill bee leaving my love asleep in the nigh. nothing has any thing to make any scene to it. just lost in deep deep deep thoughts just trying to get by. only losing track just keep going to my self