I wrote my suicide note when I was 13 and the only reason I didn't **** myself was because I was seeing one direction that summer and I didn't want the tickets to go to waste.

2. in 7th grade I got sick and couldn't eat anything for 3 days. I felt better after a few days but it left me with a habit of having to eat the least in a group of people.

3. in 8th grade I had a panic attack at 3am cause I thought about kissing girls. I cried until I almost threw up and I still don't know if I'm okay with it.

4. the summer before high school I had a crush on my best friend. then again sophomore year.

5.  I know I have a great life with great people but I want more.

6. I loved him. I couldn't tell him that because I'm petrified of someone knowing everything about me.

7. starting in 7th grade I cut my wrist every day for a year. and then my thigh for another two.

8. I'm extremely jealous of every single one of my friends.

9. I've thought to myself "yeah but I'm skinnier than her" more times than I'd like to admit.

10. I wish I killed myself when I was 13