unworthy. I’ve been distant with myself from what i want to do places i want to go.
a flicker of flame burns in my flesh calls out to the ***** moves i make in chess. its not really me but the devil wooing me to digress. God is with me. I’m safe. but these voiceless words devours my heart unable to feel anything but below par
believe me, this is the longest war theres ever been me versus me not as loathing as the Russians and Americans The sole vigor of wanting to win comes from my faith in our Creator till it plunges into the darkness once more.
never-ending, this **** in the mind i won’t stop. i won’t stop before its defeated the Duality of myself turning into a single voice