I ask Trevor why he carries around his passport from when he was 14 as his only form of government I.D. It's for cigarettes he says with a shrug, and takes a drag from the passenger seat of my car. He reminds me of someone who shouldn't be in this era, a misplaced Kerouac, and at any moment would hop a freight train or subway car to pass through someone else's life in the time it takes to turn breath into carbon. Trevor, I say, you know you can't get out of the country with that. It's expired. I know, he smirks. I just like the illusion that I'm going somewhere. There's a sad sweetness in the way he keeps his heart in a list of area codes; that home is synonymous with an expired ability to leave the way a seagull takes to ocean breeze. I don't know what he'd do if he actually had the chance.
Trevor's passport is nearly filled with other worlds he prefers, and other lives he's lived, in only a leather jacket and a pair of scuffed up Adidas. I keep wondering about the day he'll turn us into stamps to include in the rest of his collection, squeezed into one of the few blank spaces left in a crowded itinerary, (cemetery), and then he'll renew his passport.