Snow drifts and piles up in cake like clouds Running outside is not a realistic option on this day I cannot help but wonder what you must be saying Playing, trying to move past my face, my eyes.
I stop searching, leaning on validation You perhaps kiss another's lips I wonder how many times you have texted me But I will never know.
Gotta stay strong with my choice It was so hard for you to stop and say And free me for the final time You knew what it meant if you did But it looked and felt so good for you to look in my eyes-- You expressed, because you just-- You enjoy my company so much.
I wonder when I will hit the brink Of not writing or having you take up my insides My mother and room mate yell at the heavens About what you have done to my soul, my brain Polluted me, damage When we all thought We all hoped We all knew, I think.
I don't wanna do anything today I wanna go hit the town tonight I'll never send you another poem Ever again.
What a relief.
I wept and circulated Believing that was me, thats me I don't know why I have found myself here so many times But I pick myself back up Driving and flying past Your little "ugly mug" On the train And your mouth twitched As I left.
If I hadn't If I didn't In two weeks time You'd be right back in my bed again.
I don't want to be your friend.
I don't know what else there is to say Perhaps nothing at all. Everyone around me salutes I wish it was all clean and safe We tried and we tried I tried.
I'm so sick And I'm so tired I'm so just done I stop crawling out of the little lost lagoon Walking away only to return again Fighting and needing reassurance From 9 pairs of eyes I don't wanna be your manager I don't wanna be your girlfriend I don't wanna be your "nothing better yet"