I've had two things to eat today
Composed of coffee, composed of coffee
I sit by the window sill of where you work
Hoping its okay for you to see my face
My legs and my heart brought me here today.

I spent the morning crying on the phone
Another soul lost, another soul lost
You fought me over text messaging
I called myself a little white poor *****.

Goodnight, goodnight
I wish I was a member to everything
I start to really matter in this community
A man told me last night
"People naturally gravitate towards you."
White little shawl
Ink dripping from my mouth
So many options, so many things to do
I cried on the telephone this morning
Another beautiful soul lost.

This coffee is really ******* great
My stomach has been so empty the past two days
Words just flow and erupt from me
There is never enough time
But at the same time I wait for everything to start
I breathe in and breathe out
Be grateful be so grateful
Another soul lost today.

Live on, fight through it
My room mate heard me yelling into my towel in the shower
She flew out of the apartment so fast
So fast, its hard to feel supported
When the ugliness within me fights to be seen, heard
Marilyn Monroe aligns our walls
Yet.

I have about 89 things I should be doing right now
But I needed to write it out
Everyone thinks I'm so brave, so brave
Attending parties alone
Men in this world have zero to zero tact.


I fight through it
Not just a pretty picture
Cuz another beautiful soul lost today.