Thinking about life
And how much I ****** it up
Making myself miserable
And the ones around me
I'm the blame
Driving myself insane
And making everyone else
Just the same
The choices I made
Weren't the best
And that's why I kept stumbling
I felt like dying
But in truth I just
Wanted someone to care
How could anyone do that
When I pushed everyone away
So isolated in my home
I sunk deep down in the more
Of despair
I needed someone to throw
Me a rope so I could hang myself
With the decisions I came up with in this
Crazy mind of mine
I could hurt you
In a heartbeat with what I say
I could hurt you in a second with my actions
Nothing seemed worth while
I was at pains to do anything about it
All avenues seemed blocked
But when someone is in desperation
Prayers get answered
I got the help I needed
Don't ask me how it happened
It just did
I can't explain it
I was rescued from my own hell